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Wednesday, January 18th, 2017 01:50 pm
Some days I feel like I know what I'm doing. That everything is falling into place. Then I usually get thrown a curveball and I have to reassess my life all over again. Am I really doing what I should be doing? Could I be happier in a different position? Indecision isn't necessarily a bad thing. Being content where you are isn't necessarily a good thing. Indecision and discontent can lead you to push yourself for something better. It can give you the motivation for advancement in many avenues of your life. Conversely, it can also cause you to be ungrateful for what you have and view it in a skewed, jaded light. It can cause you to throw away a good thing on a whim and make your circumstances turn for the worse.

The breakdown of all that? Fucked if you do and fucked if you don't. Poetic, aren't I? There's no way of telling which way you should go, it's all a crapshoot. Take a chance and potentially it can lead you to something better or you can play it safe and go with the status quo. The tried and true. Even that can change with the tides, though (I've been writing too much Favorite Form, the next parts are going to be rather...aquatic). Was there a point to this ramble? Not really. The tag said musing so I was just musing and typing whatever came to mind! You're welcome.
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Wednesday, January 4th, 2017 03:52 pm
Hello, 2017! You sure took your sweet time getting here! I kid, hehe. With a new year comes new resolutions and I should probably keep them this year. My old resolution to actually FINISH one of my stories didn't really come true unless you count the one-shots...which I'm not. That's okay since I did make some progress on stories that I haven't looked at in quite a while. Like I said in a previous blog entry, baby steps.

With that in mind, I will be attempting to come up with a schedule to stick to. Some writing time, quality time with the hubby, collab time with my writing buddy, and no more working on my days off. Will hopefully be taking two days off a week too but we'll see. There's so much to do and my parents instilled this REALLY pesky work ethic that just won't leave me alone. >.< Maybe it'll be easier once I have a schedule....yeah. I couldn't even type that out without snorting.
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Saturday, October 29th, 2016 04:53 pm
My updates are so damn sporadic! Slowly I'm getting back into a regular schedule but it's really hard sometimes. All the daily obligations kind of suck the energy out of me and it's a fight to sit and write. Keep up with it though and soon it's not such a chore. Some days are more fun than others but you begin to rediscover the joy in writing that drew you to this in the first place. Plus....I REALLY WANT TO FINISH!! I want to get this story told! What drives me is not just that desire to tell the story. It's the fact that people are taking time out of THEIR day to read what I write! That? That is amazing.
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Sunday, October 16th, 2016 03:56 pm
This past Sunday was it! I married my sweetheart. Have to say, I didn't expect to get so choked up just listening to the Justice of the Peace give his spiel. I had suspected I'd get teary-eyed when it came down to repeating the vows, but I did not think I would be doing an impersonation of Niagara Falls! Goes to show what I know, right? The gravity of the moment just kinda hit me, I guess. To love, honor, and cherish. In sickness and in health. All that jazz. It's no longer just me, it's we. We're forming our own family. Tad bit overwhelming when that fact hits you.

Okay! Enough of that! This week there will be writing! I took off last week for the wedding but now the Punishment Game is back on! I'm a little indecisive on which story to work on, though. The Servant of the Windows or Expectations? There's also my poor neglected babies, Favorite Form and the others. Maybe I should put all the titles in a hat and pull... Bah. I'll figure something out.
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Wednesday, September 28th, 2016 11:55 am
August 28th was my last post? Oh wow, has it really been that long since I posted on here? Eep! I am still alive (not that I think there are many, if any, people reading this and were thus worried about me). I would love to say that I spent the last month or so writing and that there will be a flurry of updates to my stories but alas, I can't. The last month has been spent working and planning my wedding. Next weekend is the day! Woohoo!

I've been thinking back to where I was just 7 or so years ago and it's amazing to see where I am now. My mind isn't trapped going in those dark, poisonous circles anymore. Before you say anything, no it wasn't because of my honey. Well. Not entirely. He helped me get to a place and position where I was safe. Then he encouraged me to be me again. Not the person he thought I was or should be, me. The freedom and safety to be yourself is both overwhelming and a precious gift. Hopefully, over the rest of our lives, I'll be able to show him how much I appreciate and cherish him.

That's enough mushy stuff! There has been SOME writing done over the past month. Nothing ready for posting but I've also joined an online writing group, Scribophile. A lot of wonderful and friendly people on there with excellent advice. Some of my stuff is being posted on there (slowly since I have a hard time finding time to build up the Karma points I need to post) so hopefully I'll have an update in the near future. Some of the old stuff is also going up on there and may be edited. Okay! Back to work!
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Sunday, August 28th, 2016 12:45 pm
Rain isn't necessarily a bad thing. Water is essential for life and the fact that it literally falls from the sky is actually pretty cool. It's only when we get too much or not enough that it becomes a problem. I have no idea where I was planning on going with that but there you go.

Life is taking me on an equal parts interesting, exciting, and terrifying path. Interesting and exciting because of a promotion at work that will be giving me new challenges and rewards. Terrifying because it's something I've never done before. AND YET IT'S ALL FUN! I know, I'm weird. With the position though is a change in my free time, meaning I won't be able to write while in the store...because I won't be there all the time. When I am in the store I'll have actual work to do.

That kind of sucks but only until I find my groove. The bad part of all this? I recently redid the update schedule with Argentroses so that it now includes word count goals. Why does my timing hate me?! Oh well, just need to buckle down and do it. That update will be done by midnight tonight!
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Tuesday, August 16th, 2016 01:12 am
A recap! Argentroses and I decided to do something different for our update. We came up with a title and main character name, then we had to write a story with just that. Sounds easy, right? Nope! Turns out that was way too much freedom. Too many possibilities popped into our heads that we had a hell of a time picking just one. We're still going to finish those challenges (I'm almost done with mine). Our next challenge will be different.

For our next writing challenge, we will be adding more detail and restrictions. I wrote up one for Argentroses that included a title, detailed character description, and a situation for the character to react to. This has proven to be much easier. I guess it's better to have more guidance than open freedom. Who knew?
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Tuesday, July 12th, 2016 03:34 pm
Sometimes I think the editing portion of a piece takes more effort than actually writing it. You've finished the story you wanted to get down and are so excited! You want to just put it up and share it with the world!
BUT. It's not ready yet. Having another pair of eyes (or several more pairs of eyes) look it over will improve things so much. I especially need those extra pairs of eyes, my dialogue tags are horrible. Granted I've gotten a lot better at it over the years but still, they can be pretty bad. There's also those awkward sentences or passages that no matter what I try still come out feeling weird. Time and another opinion irons those out.

I know all this. I've even told other writers that getting someone to proofread their stuff will make a profound difference. Regardless....I REALLY JUST WANT TO POST MY NEW CHAPTER!! XD Damn this impatience! It's been soooo loooong since I've updated Favorite Form and I just want to put it up! Gah! Need to focus my nervous energy on something else! Too twitchy to sit and work on the next chapter though. Too bright and beautiful outside to work on my horror short story. Maybe some vacuuming....
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Tuesday, July 5th, 2016 06:55 pm
It's like there's a weight off my shoulders! I've been struggling with writers block and awkward sentences for months and months and months with Chapter 11 of Favorite Form but finally! It's off to my proofreaders! My proofreaders being my writing buddy and a close friend who's been wanting to read the chapters before everyone else. :p Hopefully it won't take too long to polish so I can get it posted. Now I am back to working on Chapter 12 because I bet people will be wanting it in less time than it took me to do Chapter 11.

I've also got 2 short stories that are coming along nicely. Apparently I did not get that horror thing out of my system. Le sigh. We'll see if these pretty little things do it. If not, I may need to work on Mirror Images for a while. It's funny how much mood effects writing. I can still write something when I'm not in the mood but it's so much easier when I am. That's enough musing, back to other stuff!
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Friday, July 1st, 2016 07:48 pm
...but the flesh is tired and sleep deprived. Something I've noticed as I get older, there just doesn't feel like there's enough time in the day to do everything. When thinking back to college one thing strikes me harder than others. HOW THE HELL DID I DO ALL THAT EVERY DAY??? Get up at 6am, go to school full time, work full time, get in book shopping and friend time, a bit of game time, walking EVERYWHERE or catching the bus, and not be half as tired as I am now? How do I regain that energy and motivation? This bears some careful thinking and who am I kidding? I need to exercise more. Rearrange my day so that it's more regimented like I did back in college (not that it helped me graduate). Only way to make a change is to get up off my butt and do something, right?
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Thursday, June 23rd, 2016 06:28 pm
I have too many projects. I know, I still need to finish one of them. That's the goal this year afterall! At least my challenge should be done tonight. I will hopefully have it up tonight though it likely won't be edited (don't hate me if there are blaring errors and mistakes in it! >.<) Aaaaand...that's it. Wow. I am really boring.